I have loved being able to reconnect and keep up with old friends via their blogs, so I have decided to dive into this blogging world. So here we go!
The thought has been in my mind for a while, now and I have been tossing around idea's for a name of my blog. Friends have been very creative in the naming of theirs and I admit the thought of coming up with something creative was a bit much (in my head). I mean, in my head alot of things sound good or funny, but actual people might read this!
Some thoughts that came to mind:
-Team Gould (sorry Judkins fam)
-The Gould family (not really descriptive enough for us)
-this n that (describes us, but taken)
-Family: a Journey to forever
-My Crazy Life (hmm...)
-A Day in the Life of a Foster Family (sub-title: You mean you want to move another child back to a Grandma?) (that one may just come off as a little more bitter than I really am)
God lead me down another direction...Over the past 10 years or so, the major theme of God working in me is teaching me to be ok with who I really am. Looking back to my college years, I was insecure and scared. If no one was available to go to dinner I would over-analyze their reasoning and would never consider going by myself. I was so worried about people not finding out how odd I thought I was.
As the years progressed Tim and I were married, pastoring a church, and I was now a nurse. The next step in my life was to be a mother. God had other plans for me at that point. I had filled my life with titles of who I was and that defined me. Wife, Nurse, Pastor's Wife....and supposed to be mother. If I couldn't fulfill that title of Mother than who was I? I also as a Pastor's wife was trying to be who I thought the church was expecting me to be. (admittedly, I was putting most of those expectations on myself, they weren't from the church)
God taught me alot thru that stage in my life. The titles don't matter. I am a quirky, odd, sarcastic woman of God. He has created me just as I am and I am not perfect!! (absolutely liberating!!) He is perfecting me as we go on this journey.
So how does that relate to the name of this blog? One of my favorite songs is from Nicole C Mullen, called "This This":
When I dance I'm gonna do it like this this
When I prance I'm gonna do it like this this
Every chance I'm gonna do it like this this
Like this this gotta be myself
When I smile I'm gonna do it like this this
When I style I'm gonna do it like this this
Honey chil' I'm gonna do it like this this
Like this this
Gotta be myself
I like chewing gum when I sing
I like H2O with everthing
I like idiosyncrasies
I like cute ugly kinda shoes
I like just kicking it with you
I like being free enough to choose
So I
Gotta be myself
When I dress it I'm a do it like this this
When I press it I'm a do it like this this
If He bless it I'm a do it like this this
Like this this
Gotta be myself
When I raise 'em I'm a do it like this this
When I praise Him I'm a do it like this this
Everyday I'm gonna do it like this this
Like this this
Gotta be myself
This This is just who I am.....Who I have learned to love to be.
